Finding my way in the "new normal"

Life is really changing quickly lately.

Because I find myself alone with my thoughts so often now, I have experienced many emotions daily.

I spend time remembering.

I spend time pondering.

I consider planning,

 but have decided that is truly a waste of my time,

for I know I am not able to carry out most of my plans.

I spend a lot of time praying.

I spend time wondering.

I hope.

I have loved and lost.

I love and know I will lose until finally I am the one to go home.

I enjoy learning and seek new opportunities to experience.

I have enjoyed traveling many distances in recent years.

I don't laugh enough.

I cry, but too often try to stop the healing tears.

I serve.

I try to acknowledge service.

Life is changing fast

and

I know I am on "borrowed time".

I don't know when my last moment will be,

but I am not afraid.

That is the greatest blessing in my life;

knowing where I came from and where I am going.

I thank God for all who are willing to share this journey with me.

Thank you for America!

I have celebrated 50 Fourth of Julys now!

Yes, half a century as an American citizen!

My parents loved this country.

So did their parents.

I only remember two of my Great-Grandmas

and have no memory of them in regards to patriotism.

I remember decking out in red, white, and blue

and going to parades and fireworks since I was a very little girl. 

My parents pointed out the soldiers and conveyed their respect for these men and women who serve our country so we can all enjoy freedom.

I tried to pass on these values to all my children.

I am a patriot of the United States of America.  I love America.

This year, my husband and I hosted our first celebration

with our parents and my brother at our house for this special holiday.

It turned out to be an extremely hot day, but all went well and we all had fun.

While we were preparing our home,
I tried to find a radio station that was playing patriotic songs.  I found none.

I tried to find something on television

that had to do with this important holiday.

I found none.

What is happening to this great country?

How long can we expect the privileges and blessings that made this country great?